A Story of How She Died

by Raudah Abdul Rashid _ [content warning for partner abuse and violence] Her name was *Siti Ainun. This is a story of how she died. Siti was a 20-year old woman who learnt from a young age to be independent, to rely on herself. As a quiet child growing up amongst siblings and step-siblings, Siti…

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My Mother was Abused by my Father, but Everyone Around Allowed it to Happen

By Ayla Suraya __ (Content Warning for Partner Violence and descriptions of abuse) My mother’s experience of Intimate Partner Violence (IPV) or domestic violence has definitely had an impact on me. Growing up, my mother would share problems that she should have confided in her spouse or a therapist and my parents’ marriage was the…

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Domestic Abuse for People of Faith

by Aliyyah Zubair __ (Content Warning for Partner Violence and descriptions of abuse) An abusive marriage/situation sucks, no matter with who and how it happens. But as believers, there’s that added dimension of our faith and spirituality that can make things that little bit more tricky. I cannot count the number of times warning bells set…

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Dua Kalimah Syahadah

by Irie _ i have been crying about dying and not-dying, all at the same time, keenly aware my consciousness will not be liberated: left to float in space. left to float in the void. left to float on and on, long after this mortal body and the mortal body after that and the mortal…

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Fear of the Afterlife & Panic Attacks

By Naj __ I always feared the afterlife. So when I experienced my first onset of hard-hitting panic attacks, I thought that I was going to die and be thrown into that world I feared the most. My first panic attack struck when I was 16. I was spacing out in Malay class when I…

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When the Lost get Found

by A When I was 11, I remember coming up to my mother one day and telling her that something was wrong with me. To this day, I can still recall the exact words I said: “I think I’m missing a few wires in my brain.” Growing up, I was a very eccentric child. I…

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What NOT to Say to a Muslim Struggling with Their Mental Health

by Nurul Afiqah __ It’s ironic how difficult it can be to find comfort among religious people when religion itself is supposed to be a source of comfort. Mentally ill people seeking support from among their friends and family in the Muslim community are often met with ignorance wrapped in well-meaning, faith-inspired advice. I reached…

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Editor’s Letter: Mental Health

by Diana Rahim It’s hard being a person. Nobody truly tells you this, nor are we really encouraged to look into this fact deeply. As a society, we are uncomfortable with confronting sadness and despair, and would rather concentrate on a superficial, easy-to-understand pursuit of happiness. We are taught to meet our basic material needs,…

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For Love or Duty

by A Lady Marriage has never been on the books for me. My parents thought it unnecessary, hindering, and dooming. They firmly believe that humanity is fast approaching qiyamah (Day of Resurrection), and the time where true believers will no longer exist on the face of this Earth. No one qualifies to be our partners,…

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When Religion is a Deal Breaker

by Firqin Sumartono __ “Say, if we do get married, do I have to convert?” he asks. “Yeah, I guess.” Was my non-committal response. “But I don’t believe in it though.” “But – what would my friends and family think? People may judge!” “I understand but I don’t believe in the religion, or any for…

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